Ah. I see. You are saying that at that certain point of the race, you're not sure where or why, you lose that [love and] feeling.
Honestly I've not even tried to run competitive enough to where I am really trying hard to get on the gas early. My one crash out was due to a lapse in concentration, missing my braking point. I don't have fast lap times, especially in-race, but i'm getting around the track, which is what I'm hoping for.
Hence my absolutely horrible first few laps. Doesn't matter where, but unless they're pretty slow, the car in front of me will outrun me by a few seconds over the course of the first few laps because I'm babying the car that much... probably way too much but its weird that my driving changes that much for the first few laps until I settle into my groove.
This is the smart way to go and I tell myself every single time I'm going to do this.
...and then I don't.
At Mosport and Montreal (just realized Canadian tracks are killing me lol) I was in a fight early on; Podium at Mosport and Top 5 at Montreal.
At Mosport I botched Moss Corner and put it in the grass. I over-accelerated out trying to maintain some momentum on the uphill straight instead shooting across the track into the wall.
At Montreal I came out of T1 in a flat, tight trajectory and already on throttle lost the rear end and put it in the wall.
I wasn't even trying to be competitive at Oran and I got Podium.
Changing my driving style would make sense but then I'd never learn what the issue actually is. I need to find out why I'm having issues and either correct it via setup or make a change at that point in time.
To change now could be compensating for some unknown issue and never learning from my mistakes.
Having said that I will try to ease into throttle a bit more over the short term but I'm talking an ever so slight adjustment to my driving.